No one likes to think of themselves as mentally different than their peers.
Why is it ok to have diabetes or kidney disease but speak of mental illness and you get all kinds of reactions. Research has shown that the brains of bipolar people do fire differently than those of the regular population, how and what this means remains to be said, but there seems to be indeed a physiological difference.

Having said all that, I told one of my sisters this past weekend what this means and that I am on meds, I was very uncomfortable talking about it, because immediately I sense that it does not go over well, misunderstood, or disagrees with course of action to be on meds. My family is strongly against the use of meds. Than oddly enough there happened to be a psych nurse in the same room where I was able to decompress some of the anxiety I felt telling a dear family member…interesting as she felt the safest person in the room to talk to.

My biggest wish for this blog is to connect with other bipolar people, and to someday and in someway help destigmatize mental illness. It’s hard enough living with a brain that wants to fire all or nothing, but than having to defend your choices in getting help…(finally) is the last thing someone who tends to be more socially insecure needs. I’m griping here, but what the heck its my blog.