glass half empty or half full

I feel it necessary to publish an addendum to one of my latest entries. In one of my posts I remarked that "my family is against the use of medications" It has been brought to my attention that not everyone feels that way. Ok when I really think about it, its really only about half of the people that feel that way. Half empty or half full. I tend to take the criticism and focus only on that instead of recognizing the support that I do have.

Human condition? Mental condition?

It was once explained to me that having a mental illness is like having a path paved in the grass by constantly walking in the same place. Neurons are fired automatically like grooves indented into the human brain, stuck in a never ending gyration of impulses. HAs my negativity affected me in that way? Or has my negativity affected my brain? No wonder people find it difficult too live with people that are mentally ill. That seems to be true. There are support groups dedicated to loved ones dealing with the mentally ill.

Hmmm very humbling realization on my part.

Here's to certain people in my family!!!! The good eggs that are out there in the corners and shadows filling in the tormented slants of my personality and inner conflictions. You know who you are!!! Honestly there isn't a one of them that does not love me in their own way and capacity. Such a simple but profoundly changing reality to realize. I regret not recognizing that sooner. It could have made life much less painful.