The Abilify Ride
I do not write much about the specifics of my illness, because quite frankly I do not understand it all. I am officially diagnosed with Bipolar 1, PTSD, and some tendancies toward ADD.
I will never forget my experience with my first medication, and my favorite, Abilify. For the record, I take Abilify10 mg(anti-psychotic, mood stabilizer), seroquel 25 mg(anti-psychotic mood stabilizer, great sleep inducer, without it I'm up every two hours in a panic because I cannot sleep. Lamictal 200 mg, great for the drag your knuckles, cannot get out of bed type depression. wellbutrin SR 100 mg, and last but not he very least at the honorable mention position, Lorazepam as needed. I took that one for the anxiety that rocked my world and took me out of a profession that I would otherwise not like very well. Anxiety attacks are not good around people to whom you are supposed to Doctor, or in my case, chiroprac them. Unfortunately or maybe fortunately I have eased off that one. Its side effects include, get this ....more anxiety, the kind that makes you feel like a chain saw is revved up and running right next to your body. Thats really fun.
well on to the topic of my idea of the day. I was thinking back to what it felt like to be on abilify for the first time. Very interesting....I truly beleive that some people are misdiagnosed and should not be taking medication. But for people like me....that white noise, constant mental chatter, sometimes overlapping different conversations at the same time, as well as that stupid commentary that has to talk as I say everword that leaves my hesitant lips. Always thinking about the microcosms of the entire intergalatic macrocosm of the universe, you get the point, I was always on the space shuttle hovering the earth, and then abilify came a long and smacked me right down onto the runway, I could feel everything crisp and sharp icluding my own emotions. Even colors were clear, and not foggy and gray. The thing is, it made me actually feel my emotions that I had numbed off for years by floating above the universe. One of the intersting things was a intense feeling of claustrophobia that I had not felt since I was a kid. Luckily that weird "side effect" subsided.
The best part is that I do not feel like people want to hurt me anymore.
I will never forget my experience with my first medication, and my favorite, Abilify. For the record, I take Abilify10 mg(anti-psychotic, mood stabilizer), seroquel 25 mg(anti-psychotic mood stabilizer, great sleep inducer, without it I'm up every two hours in a panic because I cannot sleep. Lamictal 200 mg, great for the drag your knuckles, cannot get out of bed type depression. wellbutrin SR 100 mg, and last but not he very least at the honorable mention position, Lorazepam as needed. I took that one for the anxiety that rocked my world and took me out of a profession that I would otherwise not like very well. Anxiety attacks are not good around people to whom you are supposed to Doctor, or in my case, chiroprac them. Unfortunately or maybe fortunately I have eased off that one. Its side effects include, get this ....more anxiety, the kind that makes you feel like a chain saw is revved up and running right next to your body. Thats really fun.
well on to the topic of my idea of the day. I was thinking back to what it felt like to be on abilify for the first time. Very interesting....I truly beleive that some people are misdiagnosed and should not be taking medication. But for people like me....that white noise, constant mental chatter, sometimes overlapping different conversations at the same time, as well as that stupid commentary that has to talk as I say everword that leaves my hesitant lips. Always thinking about the microcosms of the entire intergalatic macrocosm of the universe, you get the point, I was always on the space shuttle hovering the earth, and then abilify came a long and smacked me right down onto the runway, I could feel everything crisp and sharp icluding my own emotions. Even colors were clear, and not foggy and gray. The thing is, it made me actually feel my emotions that I had numbed off for years by floating above the universe. One of the intersting things was a intense feeling of claustrophobia that I had not felt since I was a kid. Luckily that weird "side effect" subsided.
The best part is that I do not feel like people want to hurt me anymore.
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