Abilify Ride volume 2

Wow-
amazing
I went to my pDoc two weeks ago, and decided the anti-depressants were not working. He said, they have not proven to work well with people with BP disorder. Which by the way is a mood disorder. A type of Mental Illness. Maybe Neurological illness would say it better.

so this is how normal people feel. When I say feel,,,, I do NOT mean the human condition.
I mean I am experiencing good amount of motivation.. but not soo much that I am painting ceilings at midnight. I have no apathy or neglectful behaviors. I have a good amount of energy. I am sleeping well, and waking refreshed. What a huge difference 5 extra mgs of abilify has done. I have not had a low spot in about three weeks, which has been my longest ever. There is only one stream of thoughts and only one voice connecting with me in my mind, which is a very useful thing. No agitation, anger outbursts or other pent up irritations.

Now the human condition part. I still need God. I still worry about things out of my control-sometimes. I still get upset with people if they hurt me, or feel guilty if I hurt them. Mood stabilization does not ever mean a lack of connection to feelings. Its just that they are the appropriate size and level that most productive people feel on a day to day basis. Its not interfering with my tasks of day to day life.

I should really write this blog for people who do not have bp disorder.. cus I always feel like I am explaining this to someone. Maybe others who would otherwise not understand.

Thanks for the readers.

Thanksgiving is coming up... My favorite holiday.