From depression to euphoria, what's new?

Two weeks ago I experienced a mind numbing episode of depression. It was really bad. The urge to want to die and be gone is so strong. I also want to eat everything in the house. Which make sme ffeel terrible about myself. I have spoken enough about depression, it occurs like clockwork every three weeks or so. This time, though I swear it is the last time. How many times have I sworn to that as well. But as quickly as it came on, it disappears poof like magic.
There is one thing that is different this time. I hope I hope I hope.

Sleep.

I found out that I need to be in bed by nine thirty or so every night. It has made a huge difference. I hope I hope I hope this time it will stick.

For me, when I am not in depression I get manic. My biggest symtoms are hyperactivity and extreme irritability. I cannot relax and I am not hungry. The only thing that makes this a better state than depression is that I do not want to die, it just feels like Im running out of time.

Currently my appetite is all mixed up so I am not sure what state I am in. I am totally not hungry, but I am eating everything in sight. It feels really crummy.

I get to see my pDoc in a week. I can hardly wait to try for a new med change. Yippee!!!!
My life is so fun.